ok this ones just to get myself into a better habit of writing more often. so apologies if I ramble.
I just had a fantastic visit with Morgan Xavier and hope that we can keep it up more often, I love to hear all that's going on in her life. She's great!
Its startling to realize how little I interact with other people (offline), work not included. I think its getting to me, I am not naturally extroverted and so I easily fall into a don't-want-go-out-at-all routine which I am finding isn't good, not good at all. So I have to consciously find ways to see or at least talk to the people I love and get to know the people I don't. I heard of a family that has stopped giving gifts for the holidays (scandalous!) but instead they offer services of themselves, whatever their talents or knowledge may be. How much more meaningful is that? Isn't that what the spirit of giving really means, to give of yourself. I also read a story of a woman who challenged herself with 50 days of selfless acts, and now it is an easy habit for her and her entire family. This is the direction I would much prefer to see myself going in. I abhor being stagnant, but I'm very good at it, tragically.
I am working on thinking positively and listening to my instincts, willingly going outside of my comfort zone, especially with E. The meaning of life phases are never easy, I just hope there is a happy ending, depression medication not-withstanding.
Cheers to my two faithful readers I'm off to finish the dishes before the motivation leaves me crafting instead!